From Today I Will Give Myself A Chance

I’m so tired of being the last person I take care of. It’s so exhausting to be there for everyone else, but never for myself. I’m always afraid I’m disturbing people if I say something to them that they do not want to hear. But now that’s enough: I’m done with this. From today I will give myself a chance.

I want to get rid of all the worries I carry within me and that make me who I am not. By caring so much about what others think  , I have hidden my true identity. I also want to stop feeling so guilty and that I disappoint everyone. It’s time to remove the mask that hides my true identity. I no longer want to be in the shadows or be a “yes-sayer”. From today I start to give myself a chance.

From now on I will start to love myself. It will not be easy, because I tend to criticize myself and blame myself for almost everything. But I do it a little at a time, slowly but surely. Most important of all is that I will do it the right way.

Every day, instead of worrying about everything I did wrong, I should  instead congratulate myself for everything I did right. I’m talking about creating a new perspective and seeing myself in a new way – with pride in myself.

Maybe I’m not good at it yet; maybe it will be very difficult. But if I never start, how will I ever be able to see myself as the valuable person I am? Making myself a priority.

Another thing I should do is accept myself. Just like I am. I will give myself permission to be the person I am inside, the person who has so far been afraid to go out and risk rejection. I’ll show myself as I am. And I will not only do it for myself, but for the whole world. I will be the same person towards others as I am towards myself.

Finally, the most important promise I have to make is to prioritize myself. I will ask myself, “how are you?” and “what do you really want?” Then I make a decision based on this. Not like I did before, where I just asked how others were doing and what they wanted.

I have decided to give myself a chance: to be myself, free and real.

If there is one thing I deserve but which I have denied myself until now, it is happiness. That’s why I’ll give myself a chance. I will be there for myself and look deep into my own eyes, so that what I do is in line with my desires and needs. There is no looking back: I will open up, hold my own hand and never let it go. I want to be my own friend, my own support and my own protection.

I will forgive myself forever when I last chose myself or not at all. I will forgive myself for when I knew what I wanted but betrayed myself. Because if I want to be happy, I have to be at peace with myself.

Once I have come in peace with myself, when I feel authentic and when I value myself enough to show myself as I am, then I begin to create my happiness. Because if I have learned anything in my years of life, it is that this wonderful feeling will not come and knock on my door. I have to adopt happiness as an attitude to life. So I will love and prioritize myself… and appreciate the little things in life that have always been there but that have gone unnoticed.

Just as I allow myself to be happy, I also allow myself to be sad. I will embrace every emotion that I feel and that shows that I will understand myself better, and also others. Because if I give myself a chance, I also give it to others.